Well we have had a few weeks of H... But things are starting to calm down. Something else important happened I learned a couple of very important lessons, I also learned that I cannot do everything. I felt very overwhelmed with my math class and realized taking 2 math classes in one semester online was not for a mother of 2 little children. I spent at least 5 hours a night at the computer, no sleep and lots of stress. I had the opportunity to withdraw from the class without having to repay my financial aid so I took it. I will take the class one semester at a time and in the class room. First lesson learned. Second lesson, my little job that I have had for about a year and a half of managing three Byu housing condos. Way more stress and work than the pay is worth. I QUIT.. That is actually a hard thing to admit but this has needed to happen for a long time. I was really starting to hate every call and email I got from the tenants and the owner, I think the reason I disliked it so much was I when I got a call I knew it was going to require my time that I did not have to give to them. I also had to deal with a lot of complaints and often bratty tenants. Anyway enough was enough with that. I feel so relieved knowing that I, no longer have that responsibility. My next lesson is that I needed to listen to my body. I was running myself into the ground and so any added stress for example Kaden getting stitches in his forehead, a car crash etc put me over the edge. I got shingles and a strained back. I have to say one of the most painful things I have ever experienced. (Shingles (herpes zoster) is a painful, blistering skin rash due to the varicella-zoster virus, the virus that causes chickenpox. It is usually brought on by stress and a weakened immune system) In my case I was not sleeping at all because I had hurt my back and had a lot of additional stress. Honestly the small rash I have is not the worst part of it. The rash is like the top of an ice berg. Shingles are a directly connected to your nerves so about ever minuet and a half I get a sharp pain shooting up and down my nerves on my side and it is incredibly painful. I am on the mend however and am starting to feel better. So point is I listened to my body and rid myself of 2 huge stressors in my life. Next lesson I really do enjoy my children. I love them so much but find myself often getting caught up in just providing and caring for them that I forgot to have fun with them (or more honestly just didn’t have the time to have fun with them) I had been so long sense I had just made time to sit down and color with Grace or played cars with Kade. I missed that and so did they I think. They are so much fun and funny. They say the funniest things, for example yesterday I was teasing Kaden and I popped his toes (he was laughing) and he said what is that noise? I said I popped your toes he looked at Grace and said Mom broke my toes. I laughed so hard. Mike reached over and popped my toes and Kaden said Dad don’t break moms toes. Another cute thing was yesterday morning Kaden and Grace had just gotten out of bed and made their way to my bed when I heard Kaden say “Grace I like your hair” Grace replied “well thank you Kaden” SOOO CUTE. I am in love with them they make me so happy, I am so proud to be their mom. Have you ever looked at your child and thought how did I get so luck to be your mom (Kaden stood on the edge of his bed and gave me a hug last night and was eye to eye with me, I looked at him and had a moment when I thought someday I will be looking at this beautiful face really eye to eye. He will be a grown man and hopefully I can teach him all the tools he needs to be a good person who loves life, his family and the lord.)One of my favorite things Grace has been saying lately is, when we come home after being gone from her she will say “mom whatcha been up to” I don’t know where she got that from, I don’t remember saying it but it is so dang cute. She is a beauty.
Well for saying this is my first blog, it’s a long one, I guess I had more to say than I thought, and I talk a lot. But to sum it all up, I learned a lot these last couple of week. .I learned to minimize my stress and to put my priorities in order. Those are two really important things for me to learn or rather relearn.
